i'm getting visitors left and right. My parents came last weekend, met my some of my friends, finally. My parents have now met a total of three of my college friends. It may not be important to other people, but I want my parents to know what is going on in my life, and the main people in my life. It was painful to be in LA with them, though. Talk about annoying non-LA drivers. My dad is the epitome of this, plus my mom is complaining how she hates LA every ten seconds.

But, regardless, they got to see where I go, what I do, etc. It was worth the trip.

Andrew was here for the weekend, but i took him to the airport this morning. This is the first time I've been feeling all these sorts of emotions for another individual. It is scary, and strange, and unnerving. I wanted to cry, I almost did. He doesn't even see it as depressing, and I felt so depressed when he left. It was hard to deal with such imbalance in my life. I like the balanced, measured life, but life just isn't always like that.

Even in situations I thought would be clean, and not messy, have turned into greys, messes, nothing is clean anymore. But, that is part of life, part of maturing.

On a happier note, I saw Amy the other day for lunch. She is great, and I loved that we were able to meet after three years of not seeing each other, and doing a shit of a job keeping in touch. I don't know if we really even tried that hard. Regardless, seeing old friends is the best feeling, no matter how much time has gone by. It reminded me of when I saw Rushelle in Hawaii. You don't get second opportunities like those. Sweep 'em up.

I haven't done any entries in ages. Well, I've decided to change that. I"ve been going crazy with all this web stuff since I am so bored at work.

I work at DirecTV, I"m moving apartments. I'm getting lunch with Amy today too. I haven't seen her in ages. I wonder what it will be like. I'm really excited, but kind of nervous as well.

Life has been full of surprises, mostly good, but lots of stress as well. I had thought that I had an apartment, but now there are many difficulties, and I am j ust stuck in limbo.

I'm not sure what to do with my job situation. I haven't graduated. I"m taking a fifth year, but I have no job to occupy my time for the year.

My boy...who is not my boyfriend ...is coming to visit me in a couple of days. He is staying for the weekend. I'm really looking forward to it, but at the same time dreading it too. I want to see him, but I know that it will be difficult as well.

Life is a bitch. It doesn't get any easier that is for sure. Everything turns different shades of grey, rather than black and white...like we were all taught as kids.